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I have been trying to get to a point where things feel a little less like I'm under-kneaded bread that gets torn apart when the dough gets stretched. This past weekend was busy, but I also tried to take deep breaths and focus on doing one thing at a time.
It's not easy pulling myself back from the brink sometimes. On Saturday, I was so tired that I kept making little mistakes, and it all just sort of piled on and made everything feel much bigger than it was. But I also got to a point where I felt like I was too tired to go to sleep, which begins its own vicious cycle of bad thoughts and a lack of rest.
Eventually I made myself a little sign that says, "Don't go crazy. Just go to sleep." It's silly, maybe, but it's a little reminder that the catastrophes I build up in my head are not really catastrophes. And that the moment I recognize that my reaction to things is out of proportion of what's actually in front of me, I should take stock of what my body needs. More often lately, it's been a lack of rest. Sometimes it's in need of food. Sometimes I realize that I haven't been outside in a few days. (The perils of working from home.) Whatever it is, the solution is not to spiral into despair.
It's not easy pulling myself back from the brink sometimes. On Saturday, I was so tired that I kept making little mistakes, and it all just sort of piled on and made everything feel much bigger than it was. But I also got to a point where I felt like I was too tired to go to sleep, which begins its own vicious cycle of bad thoughts and a lack of rest.
Eventually I made myself a little sign that says, "Don't go crazy. Just go to sleep." It's silly, maybe, but it's a little reminder that the catastrophes I build up in my head are not really catastrophes. And that the moment I recognize that my reaction to things is out of proportion of what's actually in front of me, I should take stock of what my body needs. More often lately, it's been a lack of rest. Sometimes it's in need of food. Sometimes I realize that I haven't been outside in a few days. (The perils of working from home.) Whatever it is, the solution is not to spiral into despair.