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Exercise diary, 13 August 2022
Aug. 13th, 2022 05:41 pmYesterday I was pretty sick (upset stomach, super tired because of interrupted sleep, etc.). I didn't go for a run yesterday because I was just feeling so unwell, but today I was better enough that I went for a quick jog/walk around campus.
And today, not only have I felt really productive, but my brain was less of an asshole. Like, yesterday I was sick, right? But then I started having all these vaguely mean thoughts about myself like "Oh, I'm not good enough" or "Oh, I'm gonna fail out of grad school" or "Oh, I'm actually super lazy and stupid, huh?" and they were really unhelpful thoughts because what do I mean "good enough"? I dunno, my brain was just yelling it at me. But then today? When I went for one jog in the morning? Not only am I "functioning" better but I think I'm damn awesome? And I hate (NB: not really) how much my mood depends on regular exercise. Like please, let me be a well-adjusted lump who will occasionally go for a stroll when the mood strikes.
And today, not only have I felt really productive, but my brain was less of an asshole. Like, yesterday I was sick, right? But then I started having all these vaguely mean thoughts about myself like "Oh, I'm not good enough" or "Oh, I'm gonna fail out of grad school" or "Oh, I'm actually super lazy and stupid, huh?" and they were really unhelpful thoughts because what do I mean "good enough"? I dunno, my brain was just yelling it at me. But then today? When I went for one jog in the morning? Not only am I "functioning" better but I think I'm damn awesome? And I hate (NB: not really) how much my mood depends on regular exercise. Like please, let me be a well-adjusted lump who will occasionally go for a stroll when the mood strikes.
