Working hard, hardly working
Mar. 27th, 2025 01:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
polyproticamory
I'm on my lunch break right now, and I noticed that I think much faster on my feet when I'm writing rather than speaking. In all the meetings I've had this morning, I was sort of a flat, diminished version of myself. Technically the same person, but much of my communication is through my facial expressions, and I will default to using the chat where I'm all 💖🌈💐✨🥰 rather than speaking aloud.
It shouldn't really come as a surprise. I've always preferred writing to talking.
While I was doing some errands this morning, I did some surface-level reflection on this daily-ish lunchposting I've been doing on Dreamwidth, and I think I write more when I blog more. Not just, like, empirically (obviously, blogging counts as writing, so if I blog more then I'm, by definition, writing more). But all my non-blog writing feels more alive, somehow. It feels more focused and energetic. I'm having more fun. Last night, after I finished work, I sat down and wrote a draft of a new short story for two hours. It's the first piece of original fiction (not fan fiction) that's not related to any of my degree work that I've written in months (if not...years?). It's rough, and I already have plans for how to edit it, but I have the pages and I felt excited about it, about its potential.
I don't think I have a grand theory for why this might be the case. I don't know if it's confirmation bias (I'm noticing the writing now that I'm paying this kind of attention to it), or am developing an affinity for it, or if I'm somehow tricking my brain into writing a certain way (i.e., I write more things that could be read by an audience, even when none technically exists, then I'm more likely to write other things like I have an audience, which is to say, more focused and exciting). But all of this is to say: I'm writing more, and that makes me happy.
It shouldn't really come as a surprise. I've always preferred writing to talking.
While I was doing some errands this morning, I did some surface-level reflection on this daily-ish lunchposting I've been doing on Dreamwidth, and I think I write more when I blog more. Not just, like, empirically (obviously, blogging counts as writing, so if I blog more then I'm, by definition, writing more). But all my non-blog writing feels more alive, somehow. It feels more focused and energetic. I'm having more fun. Last night, after I finished work, I sat down and wrote a draft of a new short story for two hours. It's the first piece of original fiction (not fan fiction) that's not related to any of my degree work that I've written in months (if not...years?). It's rough, and I already have plans for how to edit it, but I have the pages and I felt excited about it, about its potential.
I don't think I have a grand theory for why this might be the case. I don't know if it's confirmation bias (I'm noticing the writing now that I'm paying this kind of attention to it), or am developing an affinity for it, or if I'm somehow tricking my brain into writing a certain way (i.e., I write more things that could be read by an audience, even when none technically exists, then I'm more likely to write other things like I have an audience, which is to say, more focused and exciting). But all of this is to say: I'm writing more, and that makes me happy.